We went for a much needed weekend away last weekend. I was desperate to get away for a weekend before this baby arrives and there are so many things going on over the next few months and we wanted to avoid Easter holiday so I took the plunge and booked up a holiday for us all at a place called Bosinver Farm near St Austell in Cornwall.
It was gorgeous and great for families, we could have spent the whole weekend on the farm if we wanted to, there was so much to do. The cottage was so stylish, all the furniture was really good quality, it felt like a real luxurious treat.
I was deeply glad of the rest, of being able to get away from the "shoulds": "I
should be doing the laundry, I
should be doing the dishes, I
should be hoovering, I
should be getting dinner ready, I
should, I
should, I
should..." Do you ever feel like that? But away from our home there was nothing that needed doing so I got to have a good sit down, just enjoying things like drinking my tea and looking at the view, meditating, making a conscious effort to relax my body into the chair and doing bits of the Kelly Rae Roberts E Course that I recently signed up for.
I also read an entire book, albeit a short one! The War of Art by Steven Pressfield! Go me!
We visited a friend who lives nearby and met her lovely new baby at Trebah Gardens, and went to the Eden project, (poor show on the "breastfeeding room" Eden Project, disappointed) although I wasn't so fussed about filling our days with activities so we took a very laid back approach to getting out and about.
Time away is always good for reflecting. I am having some issues with my faith at the moment so had a bit of chance for prayer and thinking about that. I have always identified myself as a Christian but recently been having some problems with some aspects of the faith and my feelings about it, lots of guilt and fear, so I am having to explore my spirituality at bit, looking for the truth, trying to be open to messages from God and guidance, so some time away from normal day to day life helped a little bit with this. Still lots of exploring to do though.
I am hoping to have more focus on my art business in the next few weeks, as well as booking up another Gentle Parenting Retreat. Exciting times ahead, and feeling really good pregnancy wise, got lots of energy, though starting to feel uncomfortable at night. I am wanting to pack as much in as I can before this baby arrives. It's ironic that I am feeling the most creative I have in a long time yet have the least amount of time to use the creativity and motivation. It's a challenge and I am still battling my own inability to focus on the task at hand and not be distracted by things like Facebook. But I feel like things are getting better, I feel like I am starting to Thrive. Perhaps it's like spring for me, just as the new shoots are starting to come through the ground my own creative shoots are starting to reach through. It definitely feels like a time of growth and transformation.
