I can't do anything to make these things go away, I haven't the facilities or capacity to do anything to help, I am helpless and this could well lead to hopelessness.
The only option for me is escape.
So that's what we've done.
For my birthday we bought a tent and every weekend for the last three weekends we have been camping.
It's been mostly great,
It was a lot of work,
There were tears,
There were arguments,
There was cooking in the rain,
There were pancakes and tea in the sun,
There was waking up freezing cold,
There was waking up boiling hot.
There were lakes,
There were beaches,
There were woods,
There were cosy evenings,
There was wine,
We learnt a lot.
The first weekend we went to a campsite just ten minutes from our house, we forgot a washing up bowl, a dustpan and brush, dish sponges and washing up liquid. But enjoyed walking round the lake and the playground, and a good breakfast at a cafe.
The next weekend we went about an hour away to a campsite in Wiltshire in the Savernake Forest, it was wonderful being so near the forest. I thoroughly enjoyed peeing in the woods in the very early morning with the sunlight shining through the trees and the birds all waking up.
So I am loving camping, mostly. I love the slower pace of life, and how everything just takes longer, in the positive sense of it being leisurely. Walking to the tap to get water, cooking the meals, even going to the loo. I enjoy the simplicity of it, you're not surrounded by stuff, you just have the bear minimum. I enjoy the low-tech-ness of it, I don't use my phone, no hoover, oven or TV (though I do read books on my Kindle) This also means I can avoid any more heart-wrenching news, at least temporarily.
How do you deal with all the trouble that's going on? Do you escape too? How? If you don't escape, what do you do?
Going camping was one of my goals for this year and I hope I will share lots more camping adventures with you over the summer. I really hope we're going to be a "camping family" and that this will be something that brings us together, can eventually relax us and help us unwind and be an important part of our lives. I am also hoping that camping with friends will be something we will be doing in the future too.